"You will look for me, and as I told the Jews, 'You cannot come,' so now I say it to you."
Imagine how befuddled the disciples must have felt hearing this from Jesus as they shared their last meal together! Here they had walked away from their own lives to follow him, stuck with him for three years and now he was saying he was moving on and they can't come? They must have felt flummoxed. Maybe rejected. Certainly confused. Was all of this going to just end? Was all they had worked for and sacrificed for just going to dwindle away as Jesus headed off on his own? "But the crowds were so excited to see you when we got to town!" Our Gospel starts out today saying, "Reclining at table with his disciples, Jesus was deeply troubled..." (v. 21) So, no one was actually comfortable at this gathering, beginning with Jesus. This was looking like a dark cloud coming quickly. Think of all the emotions experienced by everyone at the table...fear, excitement, angst, anticipation, uncertainty, confusion, wonder, bewilderment, all circling back to fear. What was going to happen? We imagine these same emotions with the disciples and Jesus as we sit at the table, at the edge of our seats. Love, heidi