"More than ever I find myself in the hands of God. This is what I have wanted all my life from my youth. But now there is a difference; the initiative is entirely with God. It is indeed a profound spiritual experience to know and feel myself so totally in God's hands."
Pedro Arrupe, SJ, "In the Hands of God"
I could never express what I've been experiencing these last few years with any more clarity than this. This is it. Instead of feeling that I'm running hither and yon trying to find God, I feel that God is chasing and yearning for me. I wonder if it is an age thing? I don't feel completely "there" yet, however. I still have a way to go to completely feel surrendered. But I feel like God is keeping a very close eye on me--like I'm a lively teenager, whose actions must be closely monitored. Instead of calling for God or feeling the need to beckon God, God is already right there with me. God has been there all along, waiting for me to call. It is a stage of life, Friends. What I have been seeking since I was a young girl is right here with me. It's like what Fr. Richard Rohr says too, "You can quit knocking, you are already inside!" I'm already inside...in God's hands. Love, heidi
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